ahh..
my "morning sadness" is back.
i woke up at 6.45 am this morning and i no longer could get back to slp. the weather was so nice for me to slp a little longer and now it still is. its so windy and seems to be going to rain but it doesnt. how nice it is. I just cant force myself back to slp and all i could do is to lie on my bed and let all my thoughts slowly run into my mind. im worried that i cant finish my work. im worried i cant do well for my tests and the list runs on...

thanks to mb and gth. when i saw that friend of mine ytd, i felt so wierd. i was just trying to avoid this person. i dont really want to be friends with pple who tell me such things but then i cant run away from this person for more than one wk. i guess i will go mad. this person is so close to me (not in terms in friendship). so how far can i actually avoid this person?

something i just heard from somewhere (sth similar to this):
" i wished i could call you now and tell you about all that i feel for you. i need to tell you how i feel. its hard for me to keep it to myself. i wished that there wasnt this day. this day that i will feel so miserable because of you, because i cant be with you."
haha what nonsense is this. but it sounds like sth dont you think so mb?

mb, i have been thinking of what you told me ytd night. im not sure if its really sth i need to think of it now. but then, i think u guessed it right. i do hsfftp. sounds so incredible right? but i know i can change the situation. and i need to do it immediately, almost immediately. i cant let this thing go on. Ive told you how impossible this thing would be. changing it would be the best. waiting for it to subside wld take mths. lor lor. mayb an enzyme can be used to catalyse this. you must help me when im implementing this change. pls, there's no need to get YOU to talk to me abt such things. haha.

im going to learn how to use proteins to make an enzyme that will help me in this area.
madagascar is tmr. excitement dies. im no longer interested in it.

downfall's sound effects were so loud. i had a few shocks by those gun shots. hopefully gth or the person bside me did not see my reaction 'cos of those shocks, did they?
sth abt gth:
while gth just sat there like a wood block not moving at all. i wonder if he did stuck sth into his ears. mayb he was too cold to move. and i got a mosquito bite while i was in the cinema. it should haf gone to bite gt h. my blood isnt as nice as his. but it doesnt know. its so itchy now. gth doesnt know how to differentiate salt and pepper from something that its not. haha. thats all.

plus i told him that if someone bad is actually sitting bside me, he wld have to change place with me, because he needs to sacrifice himself. haha.

hmm....not feeling better yet.